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Today I learned a new lesson about life from my daughter. We were driving home from grocery shopping, she was in the backseat in her car seat and Jeanette and I were in the front seat, when she started crying. Well, it started as crying… and then it became howling and screaming. She wanted out of her car seat and she wanted out NOW. We were driving down the road though, and of course, we can’t take her out of her car seat while we’re driving. Not only is it illegal, but it’s not safe. She can’t see that though. All she sees is her immediate discomfort. Its al about her. Jeanette and I knew best of course. We were looking out for her best interest, but all she knew was that she wasn’t comfortable.

Now, of course because we love her we pulled over when we could and Jeanette fed her; but it struck me how much like her we all are. We don’t see the bigger picture, all we see is our immediate discomfort. "Oh no, things aren’t exactly the way I planned them to be!" Whether that means our relationships, our job, our money or whatever… it’s so easy to only focus on our pain. It’s tough to believe that God knows better than we do, and that if we trust him… it’ll be so much better. We never see the trouble we avoided by trusting him, only the pain we feel when it’s hard.

It’s not easy when you aren’t the adult.

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Most people would have started about a week ago with a post saying something to the effect of, "hey tune in next week because I’ll have some pretty big news!", but everyone knows what that means when you do that, so there’s really no point in it is there?

So here it is. As of May 2nd I will no longer be working at GCC.

There’s no grand scandal or anything, I’m just not a great fit for the job. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the people I work with, and the people I support. You can’t find better. No seriously… You can’t. But, I do my best work as part of a team. Here at GCC, I’m the Lone Help Desk guy, "Captain 111" as I’ve been called (111 is my extension). Some super heroes work well alone, but others flourish as part of a team. That’s me. So as of May 5th I’ll be returning to Notre Dame’s OIT Help Desk in my previous capacity. I’ll be a part of a team of 7 amazing people who keep Northern Indiana’s largest employer/University running smooth.

Some have asked if I’ll still go to church here… umm duh. This is my home. I live and breathe what we do at GCC. I can’t leave here, where else would I go? I’ve never seen anything like this. I LOVE doing life and church with these people. I’ll be on stage acting, I’ll be in the nursery holding babies, and I’ll be here every weekend just like I am now. The only thing that changes is where I’ll make my money. This church will always be my passion.

I had a good run here. I think I helped move ministry forward. I helped GCC transition to a new model of Help Desk support that someone else will have an easier time fitting into, I trained and transitioned them to Vista and Office 2007 which is no easy task. I’ve had my hands in the back end of lots of small decisions that have affected hundreds and thousands indirectly and directly.

I’m sad to leave here. Very actually… But I know I’ll love being back at Notre Dame. God has taken care of me in greater ways than I can ever know. The way God made this happen is undeniable. His timing is better than mine, and his provision is greater than I could have hoped for. That’s all I’ll say, but know… God loves you more than you can know; and I especially know that He loves me.